Embracing Bittersweet

Have you ever had one of those weeks where everything just feels hard?

Being a mom is hard.

Being a wife is hard.

Being a boss is hard.

Being a friend is hard.

One of those weeks where you are grateful when Friday finally arrives, because you want nothing more than to crawl up in a ball, pull the covers over your head, and lose yourself in a tub of ice cream and a Netflix marathon.

Not long ago I was having exactly that kind of week, and so, feeling like I was at the end of my rope, I went to go visit my mom.

And in the way that moms do, she sat and listened as I told her about my bad day.

She was so sweet and kind and empathetic that I couldn’t help start to feel a little better. It wasn’t that she had any advice to offer, or even any words of wisdom, but mostly that she was just willing to sit in that moment with me and feel my frustration right along with me.

It meant everything.

We talked about other things too, about my daughters Maggie and Annie, and how school was going and their new violin teacher and about the cute new house that my sister has been fixing up, and about my brother’s new job and the latest news stories, and I showed her the cute pictures we had taken a few weeks earlier.

And then, as I was about to leave, I took the notepad from her table and wrote down everything we talked about, and I thanked her for being so kind and understanding.

Because without that note, she wouldn’t remember anything we talked about.

You see, my mom has dementia.

For the most part she remembers people, and can recall much from the past, but her short-term memory is almost completely gone. Every day is a blank slate. And every day we have with her is a precious gift.

After I finished writing, I handed her the notebook so that she could read what I wrote, knowing that she had probably already forgotten most of the conversation.

She quietly read it to herself several times, and then finally she said, “Thank you. Thank for telling me I was kind, and that it helped you. I think we should all be kind to each other more often.”

Oh how right she is!

I don’t know about you, but in those kind of weeks, where everything feels hard, I find myself wishing that things could just be easy sometimes. I often want a quick fix that just isn’t there.

But wishing things were different isn’t going to get me very far.

And so I know I have to make a choice. I can wallow in the unfairness of it all, or I can take a deep breath and move on and choose to be kind.  I can choose to see the beauty within the mess, and to appreciate the good that comes with the bad.   I can feel sorry for myself or I can choose to make the best of a bad situation. I can run away or I can choose to stay and fight.

Martin Luther King Jr. once said, “The greatest measure of a man is not where he stands in times of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.”

Along those same lines, Supreme Court justice William J. Brennan noted that sometimes “we must meet the challenge, rather than wish it were not before us.”

In other words, sometimes we need the bitter to taste the sweet.

And sometimes we just have to accept that life is what it is, and make the choice to rise above our circumstances, to be kind and grateful, even when we don’t feel like it, and even when we shouldn’t have to.

After all, our greatest character is built in times like these.

And so, my challenge for you, if you are feeling like things are harder than they should be right now, is to not give up.

Curl up in bed with a tub of your favorite ice cream and Netflix marathon if you have to, but choose to make the best of a hard situation. Don’t give up and don’t give in. Refuse to run away. Choose kindness and gratitude.

The strength to prevail is there inside you.

You might just have to dig a little deeper to find it.


  1. Rachel
    February 12 at 12:42PM

    Dear Ruth,
    Thank you for your vulnerability. My mom is dying of cancer and I thank you for this.

    I pray that every moment you spend will your mom will be filled with joy.

  2. February 12 at 06:00PM

    I needed to hear this today Ruth. Your words keep me going so often. Thank you!

  3. February 12 at 07:20PM

    Thank you so much for sharing your heart. It’s only Monday, and already the week feels HARD. But I’m brought to tears as I think about one of my kids who needs me to be a “kind” mom while they go through hard stuff right now. Thank you for helping me take my eyes off my own struggles and think about how I might show this kind of love to someone else.

  4. February 13 at 10:45AM

    Thank you for this. It just reminded me of myself as I was feeling the same for at least days. Then my friend phoned with some news and I realised that I was OK. There are people in worse situations than me. I chose to be positive and see the beauty. It has also given me inspiration to write down my feelings and the reason for them.

  5. Karen
    February 13 at 09:15PM

    Thank you for sharing. Perfect timing as life hasn’t been this rough for quite some time. Thank you for reminding me the strength I need prevails in me. Right now I just need to dig deeper.

  6. Lillian Lewis
    February 13 at 11:40PM

    Thank you for this. I so needed to read this. Dig a little deeper and ask God for His continued strength.

  7. Barb
    February 16 at 06:04PM

    Thank you so much for this post. We are going through a hard time with a family situation right now, and I would love nothing more than to sit and talk about it with my mom, who passed away 11 years ago. In my mind, she would know what to do and how to handle it. Today has been a day of tears, but I’m pressing on and praying for strength and courage to keep pressing on. I’m also trying to enjoy the many blessings I have, and choosing kindness, even when I don’t feel like it. Thanks for your encouraging words, and know that I’m praying for you too : )

  8. SM
    February 16 at 07:13PM

    I really needed to hear this today! Thank you. Things have been so rough these past few days, and I have been trying to convince myself I can get through it all without giving up my dreams. Your words have helped.

    I wish you as much quality time as possible with your mom. That’s not an easy place to be.

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  10. February 16 at 08:30PM

    God bless you, Ruth!

  11. February 16 at 11:46PM

    Beautiful post. Thank you for sharing with us!

  12. Laura
    February 17 at 12:57AM

    Thank you, Ruth. This week my brother and I decided to pursue guardianship of our dad, who has dementia. It is going to be a long and difficult road, but hopefully with some silver linings as well. I am saving this post to reread at the hard times. Thank you.

    • Ruth Soukup
      February 19 at 09:37PM

      I’m glad this post could bring your some hope during this difficult time. Praying for you and your brother Laura!

  13. Michelle
    February 17 at 03:54PM

    As I read this all I could do is agree. Last week was one of those weeks. On Wednesday my husband had two doctor appointments. One was with a Med. Dr. because he hadn’t been feeling well and the other with an Eye Dr, because of pain in one eye. I woke up that morning to a message from my nephews mom that he had been arrested, the next phone call was the assisted living nurse where my in laws live. They wanted to know if my husband could come right over or if they should call an ambulance for his mother. She also has dementia. He told her to call an ambulance as we were leaving for his first Dr. apt. Stop. Say a Prayer. Take a deep breath and move forward.

    • Ruth Soukup
      February 19 at 09:39PM

      So sorry for all you have been dealing with. Praying this week is better!

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